Sunday, August 16, 2015

Make it stop!

Make it stop! 

By that, I mean the clock. 

My daughter is just two days away from leaving for college and I know this sounds cliche, but where did the time go? I can still remember her first day of kindergarten like it was yesterday, so how is it possible it was 12 years ago instead?

It was difficult when my oldest son left for college two years ago, but there is something different about my daughter leaving. To be clear, I love all my children and embrace each one for their differences - but having a daughter in a house full of testosterone has been like having our own special sorority.  She gets my silliness and can, in fact, match it. She is a dear and faithful friend and I will miss having her in my house on a day to day basis. She is lovely on every level and anyone who gets to know her in college will be forever changed for the better. 

Don't get me wrong, I'm thrilled and excited for her to begin college and I know this is part of life and 'letting go' but it's so very difficult and selfishly, I'm very sad. I know eventually the sadness will be replaced with happier emotions as she finds success and happiness of her own on her own, but it will truly take some time. It is not easy to send your child to college. It's a very bittersweet endeavor indeed. 

I'd like to imagine my daughter as a butterfly as she flutters into this next facet of her life and pass on some lessons we can all learn from such creatures:

Let go of the past...

Trust the future...

Embrace change...

Come out of the cocoon...

Ride the breeze...

Savor the flowers...

Put on your brightest colors...

Let your beauty show.


To my beautiful daughter, you are a blessing to me every day and I love you with all my heart. 


 Love, Mom


Monday, October 6, 2014

Courage

Courage

noun 
  1. the quality of mind or spirit that enables a person to face difficulty, danger, pain, etc., without fear; bravery.
It was three years ago on October 7th, 2011 that I was diagnosed with cancer. What followed was a year of surgeries, chemo, and a general blur of difficult memories. But one memory I will forever cherish is how my friends and family rallied with me in battle. I never could have made it through without the support of those around me. 

During the past few years, particularly when the days were darkest, I received many gifts of encouragement. Admittedly, at my worst, I was not of body or mind to thank everyone personally, but I hope you all know how much your thoughtfulness meant to me and still means to me today. 

On the eve of the anniversary of the day my life changed forever, I came upon a gift wrapped box tucked away on a shelf in a closet. Inside was an Angel of Courage and it reminded me of all the angels of courage I have had through this journey. There was no card, no note, no indication, and sadly, no recollection of who gave me this wonderful gift, so long ago. I hope this post helps me to find the gift giver...but I also hope it serves as a collective and heartfelt thank you to whoever it was and to all the rest of my angels of courage who stayed alongside me - enabling me to face difficulty, danger, pain, etc., without fear. I love you all. 

xo

Lisa 


Sunday, August 17, 2014

I'm Fifty!

Today I turned 50. For me it was so much more than just a birthday. It symbolized a milestone in my fight with cancer. I feel great, I'm happy, healthy, and feel strong both physically and emotionally. A sort of IN YOUR FACE to cancer, I guess is what it comes down to. 

As I feel that every day cancer free is a blessing beyond words, please join me on a collective celebration...


Happy birthday to me!  Dear Cancer, you're NOT invited to my party. 

XO

Wednesday, June 18, 2014

The Unexpected Blessings of an Unexpected Book

Apart from my job of being a mother, my 'second job' as a writer has been a rewarding and affirming blessing that has taught me a great deal about the publishing world. It has also given me the opportunity learn a lesson in patience as I savor the joyful anticipation of my two upcoming children's books to be released in the somewhat distant Winter and Spring of 2016. 

My little angel book (May God Bless You with an Angel) was originally written as a prayer and meant only for my children when I first found out I had cancer. I wrote it so they would always know they were never alone through difficult things, but as importantly, through the simplest of things as well. But through my lovely agent, this prayer found it's way to a publishing house, and while I had no expectations of it becoming published, the rest, as you know, is history. 

May God Bless You with an Angel was an unexpected silver lining that came during a time when I needed it most. It gave me the confidence to keep writing, the foundation to tell others my testimony, and the comfort that no matter what, my words would be forever in a book - for my children, my family, my friends, and for strangers in need of an Angel of their own. 

This book also gave me a new dear friend in the lovely and talented Chris Shea (www.lifesighs.com). She is the best selling author and illustrator of numerous books and one of my very favorite artists. I couldn't think of anyone more perfectly suited to bring the words of my book to life in such a way as Chris did. Throughout the publishing process, and still today, among being my dear friend, Chris has also served as a mentor to me, providing just the right words of encouragement and advice at always the most appropriately needed moments. 

In addition to the many lovely books Chris has written and illustrated, she also owns a darling store (LifeSighs) in the heart of La Mesa, California.  Today she wrote me a lovely note about a young homeless man who came into her shop...please read for yourself:

Hi Lisa,

One of the advantages I have now that I have a store is being able to watch people look at my work.  Sometimes people just come in and browse and don't buy anything but it is always an honor to have people come inside.
Today a really young guy came in carrying a bed roll and a backpack.  He was very tan and pretty clean but pretty obviously was someone who lives on the street.  He walked in and instantly walked over to my little table of books.  He picked up May God Bless You With an Angel.  He perused it and then asked me what one page meant.  I started to explain he had just opened up the book to a page that was the middle of a thought.
"Oh," he said.  "I guess you have to read it.  Like a story?"
Then he asked me how much it was. I told him.  He very reluctantly put it down and said he would come back after he went to the pharmacy, but I knew that wasn't true.
"But getting a blessing would be pretty nice," he said as he headed out the store.

I called after him and said,
"You know, an unread, unowned book is not a happy book.  Why don't you just take this and share it.  Read it and keep it or give it away. Make the book happy.  Give it a home."

He seemed pretty bowled over.  And it was such an odd juxtaposition, this homeless teenager and this red book with a yellow angel on it.  He thanked me profusely and wished me blessings.  I told him the same.

So that's a nice little example of how our book blessed a kid who really needed it today.
xoxo
Chris Shea,
Your forever SoCal Pal ~ Chris Shea

It was an unexpected silver lining in an otherwise unevetful summer day.  Look closely for every silver lining...they don't only come after stormy weather. 

xo

Lisa

Thursday, June 12, 2014

We must not only survive, we must thrive!

When I was in the thick of my battle with cancer, there were poignant moments throughout when someone or something touched me in such a way that I truly felt divine intervention at work. Though time has passed, I remember each and every moment as if it were yesterday. 

One such moment was when a dear friend invited me to attend an event featuring beautiful handmade necklaces made from vintage keys adorned with words of inspiration by Jennifer Montana Design (www.jennifermontanadesign.com). In an instant, I was immediately drawn to two such necklaces embossed with the words 'courage' and 'grace' - two things that kept me going then, and still keep me going today.  

Please take a moment to read JMD's recent blogpost below featuring an article about what those necklaces symbolize for both me and my daughter every time we wear them. 

http://jennifermontanadesign.com/2014/06/08/stories/

(L-R my friend, Julie Wallanus, Jennifer Montana, and me)

(Jillian and me wearing our JMD necklaces)

Monday, May 5, 2014

In the Arms of an Angel

My dear friend Carol, a friend I met when I was first diagnosed and began my battle with cancer, sadly lost her own battle this past Saturday. She was a true testament to what it means to persevere in the face of an unimaginably difficult circumstance. 

In the short two years I was blessed to know her, I can't recall a time when she didn't have a loving smile or when she wasn't giving encouragement to me in my own fight. Knowing Carol was truly one of the best things to come from having cancer. 

After just seeing my friend a little more than a week ago, I am still stunned by this news and broken hearted for her husband, children, grandson of only 8 months, family, and for the numerous friends who loved her dearly. 

Though she must have experienced tremendous pain and suffering in her final weeks, she stood strong and never let on she was nearing the end of her life. Therefor her recent passing came as a surprise. In typical loving fashion, I don't think Carol wanted to let on how dire her situation had become - she was the epitome of grace. In the arms of an Angel and in the Kingdom of Heaven, I know my friend is free from pain,
with God at her side, as always. 

She was a wonderful wife, an amazing mother, an inspirational mentor, and a true friend. 

I will miss her every day. 

"For I reckon that the sufferings of this present time are not worthy to be compared with the glory which shall be revealed in us." ~ Romans 8:18


My beautiful sisters in battle Diane (middle) and Carol (right). 




Saturday, May 3, 2014

Rescued by a Rescue

Yesterday, I lost my beloved cat of 14 years. A barn cat for the first 10 years of his life (along with his identical brother), Chip became an indoor or 'bed' cat for the last four years of his life. He never left my side, in sickness or in health, and he was devoted to the vey end, even as he began to suffer from cancer himself. 

This cat was proof of angels to me. He found my cancer - of that I'm truly convinced. 

From this cat, I learned how to love more and give more.  He was a rescue cat, but in the end, it was he who rescued me. 

"Just ask the animals, and they will teach you." ~ Job 12:7



(Chip on left)